Bad Days

[DelicateSound]

Do you ever have one of those days where you wonder what is the point of living?

Or is it just me?

[diego]

why

[DelicateSound]

I've been in a sh!tty-assed mood all week, and I can't shift it. Sometimes i think I really do expect too much from life.

[Budokan]

Yup. You just have to weather the sh*t-storm and try to make it to tomorrow. We're here to help you do that, buddy, if you need us.

[KC Elbows]

Bad day? Sorry to hear it.

I used to have more of those days, but eventually you go through so many of those days that you get iron spirit from it, and you learn to accept it as part of life.

From most of your posts, you sound like a lighthearted person, so I figure you really enjoy the good times. That's good.

Hope things get better. And if you're looking for a reason for living, you need look no further than the blessed oatcake, and the fact that you may never suffer the terrible fate of eating canadian pizza.

And you practice kung fu, and you don't practice tae bo.

[Mojo]

You need to focus on something other than your problems. A good hard workout always has the ability to change my mood for the better.

[DelicateSound]

Originally posted by Budokan
Yup. You just have to weather the sh*t-storm and try to make it to tomorrow. We're here to help you do that, buddy, if you need us.

Cheers Budo. Nice to hear it.


Hope things get better. And if you're looking for a reason for living, you need look no further than the blessed oatcake, and the fact that you may never suffer the terrible fate of eating canadian pizza.

That alone has put a smile on my face! :D

I guess it's just the fact I have exams - and Uni coming up, and the 3 million to 1 odds against me making it in the music industry. Which kind of makes me think about having to have a desk job for the rest of my life. Which I can't even bear to think about. And the fact that its a whole THREE days 'till the next episode of Buffy. Does it get any worse :confused:

[Qi dup]

Yeah man, everybody has days like that. I think I have some real problems with that sort of thing. I've been able to write some cool songs about it though. Most of them sound pretty morbed, but writting these things makes me feel much better. Unfortunatly I've made some pretty strong mental dependancies in my life, So when ever certain things happen I feel I have to do something to counteract it. Drinking, Partying, just getting stupid i guess. I also used to cut myself, which isn't cool at all. But don't worry DS, from what I've read from all your posts your really smart and super talented on the guitar. So yeah, everybody has bad days were life isn't worth much, but I guess you have to do what works. Consider it a hero's trial, something that helps you know yourself better. I like writting songs about it, maybe give it a try and you can post some of them on here? i've got a whole bunch. Big Truck

[DelicateSound]

Originally posted by Mojo
You need to focus on something other than your problems. A good hard workout always has the ability to change my mood for the better.

That's another point - I train in my garage, and the 4ft by 3ft Bruce Lee poster I ordered STILL hasn't arrived!

[DelicateSound]

Originally posted by Qi dup
I like writting songs about it, maybe give it a try and you can post some of them on here?

I might actually try that, that's not a bad idea at all. All this negativity must be useful for something. Yin/Yang and al that crap.

[Wu Wei]

I used to. Now I don't.

As simple and useless as it may seem, I suggest keeping control your body's chemistry. Try to find everything that helps fight depression and make necessary adjustments.
Just for example theres a few things in milk that helps fight depression. Stay away from caffeine.
This may or may not be any help, but when I made every small adjusment i could I stopped having those days you've described.

But like Budokan said, just make it to tomorrow. Tomorrow is the perfect cure for today.

[Ray Pina]

Go with it, its winter. Go home after work, cook up a nice plate of pasta and vegg on the couch and watch Simpsons.

Get it out of your system. Then, wake up, realise what does any of it really matter anyway, might as well be happy and shoot for your dreams. Bad days happen, only because the problems or worries seem real at the time. A year later ... what problems?

[DelicateSound]

Cheers for all the advice guys. You helped me cheer myself up in a way! :D I just thought of the time old phrase:


Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life

It's true I suppose. I [in theory] can do what ever I want. I do have to sit an AS French resit though - so I'm off to bed! Only 9.40 but I need the sleep. A glass of milk first though.... [cheers Wu Wei]

Thanks again guys. :)

[Wu Wei]

milk's good

[fa_jing]

I agree about controling your body's chemistry. Do some chi-gong, CONSERVE your energy. Maybe take some Ginseng. That thing about making in the music biz - my brother decided he wanted to be a musician at age 20, he's talented on the guitar, but after several years, it just didn't work out. I was always on him to get an office job, he was like "that's not me." Now he is a contractor for painting, setting up hair salons, etc. He makes real good money. If you're skilled, and you have organizational ability, you can make good money in the "blue-collar" world and not have to put up with this desk crap. No manager to answer to, set your own hours (based on the Buffy Schedule) work hard, take time off, etc. I'm staying in La-la land cause I have a family to support, I need big bucks, and this is the way I'm used to doing things.

Oh, don't go wasting a whole bunch of money on University and then not use the degree. That's kinda wasteful. That's why I'll always be stuck in the "white-collar" world trying to make back the money I spent. Maybe Uni doesn't cost you anything??

-FJ

[Aramus]

TGIF or TGIT Thank god (or goodness) it's today.
You only get one day per 24 hours (sounds stupid go with it right now). When that 24 hours is up, on to a new day. Being a student can be tough, boring, rushed, exciting, not so exciting, nervous, and the anticipation of what is to come is strong enough to hurt you. You may not make it in music just yet...that is OK. There are plenty of people who made it later in life. If you are 29 like me, you realize I haven't even lived half of my life. I have a lot more to go (and I have more money than I had before).

Anyway, take anything you can from every day you have. After it is gone you have your experience and what you worked on to take with you. That is it. Live for each day, enjoy each day even if you are in a bad mood. Sometimes that is the best time to write (as already mentioned). Don't wait till Friday to go out and live. That means you are only living 2 1/2 days (unless you start dreading at the end of Sunday) out of a 7 day week. Your time is now, and your time is also now tommorrow. TAKE IT!

Good luck, hope this is a new perspective or at least entertaining.

Peace.

[diego]

BRING IN THE NEXT PATIENT-the patient is sleeping-BRING IN HIS CHART-the doctor will see you now-LETS SEE WHAT WE HAVE HEAR-----
all i seem to think about is violence//doesnt matter if im dead sober or im bent//--its strange im not insane or atleast i dont think so-or am i,you think so doc,truthfully idontkno//so.
what do i do i goto my crew and ask for help,but they aint no**** help they go through the same **** they damself//so
i look deep into the mind of a crook,then out of nowhere a envision a vision of 2right hooks"smaksmak"ahdam agian goes this ****,i cant get out of this cycle this one got me whipped//on
a thought of brainbashing....doctor stopme before i blow my mother****ing topG---SEE THAT LEATHER SOFA OVER THIER--yah--SIT BACK WITH THIS 6PACK AND A SPLIFF THAT HAVE YOUR MIND BLASTED WHILE WE CHITCHAT I THINK THAT// WE SHOULD START WITH THE SESSION//BUT BEFORE WE BEGIN LET ME ASK YOU A FEW QUESTIONS,,HAVE YOU BEEN TOUCHED THE WRONG WAY?-nah-INVOLVED IN GUNPLAY?-yyaahh!!!-1TIME YOU WAS AQUUITTED LIKE YOU WAS OJ!-how uno?-TYPICAL BLACKLIFE YOU JACKKNIFES UNDER THE SEAT,SUN LETS GET SPECIFIC ,AND PUT DOWN THAT CRACKPIPE-i dont smoke jumbones-YES YOU DO DUKE I CAN TELL-CUZ YOU ACTING FUNNY LIKE WHEN BLACKS GET MONEY--only jazz im married to is jawana,and you getting me heated just like a sauna-IM JUST TRYING TO GET INTO YOUR HEAD,PARDON THE WAY I TREAT YA,TELL ME ABOUT THAT SCAR DID YA MOMMA BEAT YA?-nahhmannn!!-**** THE MYSTERY DUKE TELL ME ABOUT YOUR HISTARY,YOUR ****ING ME OFF PLUS THE TIME KEEP ON SLIPPIN C


as i think back to the 90s thats when life got extra grimy//multiplied with a fleet right behind wasnt smart to try me//physical fam gave less than a//we shattered through the 80s,anger tearing thru my innaa-OKAY NOW WE GETTING SOMEWHERE-yah its clear i always feared id play the rear until i was outta here//thats when i flipped out became a plane transformed into a robot rochness was his name- ONE OF THE DECEP ZIGGAS-yep'taking dough clothes and then some i bend some-DID YOU HAVE ANY LEGAL SOURCE OF INCOME- i said farewell to welfare along time ago//they want you to work for those peanuts now,you need a shrink if you think ima go//then any hopes and thoughts of reabilitation were killed when i lost my zigga phil ever since its bin downhill and aint know body helping me//thats why i came to you doctor kill patience for therapy.


WHATS THE PROGNOSIS//BETTER YET DUKE HAVE A DOSAGE/PRESCRIBED POETRY THAT PEOPLE SAY IS POTENT//I BIN GOING THRU YOUR FILE AND I FOUND A CONCLUSION//THAT YOU DESTINED TO BE THE BEST IN THIS WORLD OF CONFUSION//YOU LOSE WHEN YOU FALL VICTEM TO EVIL WAYS//INO CRIME PAYS BUT THE RHYME SLAYS NOWADAYS//TAKE TWO OF THESE IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM IM ON CALL--24 HOURS-ABROAD//WORD IS BOND

HELTASKELTAH:THERAPY....

[wisdom mind]

720am my ceiling caved in from sewer juices built up from neighbors bathroom SPLASH

now i have to figure out how to get out of the lease and maintain
good credit.

anyone know any pro bono nyc housing lawyers????????

[wushu chik]

Hey DelicateSound...just think of ME!! That will make you happy!!!

~Wen~

[KC Elbows]

Well, I can't really top wushu chic's ability to chear, but I can put my 2 cents in.

I have four passions in life. Writing, writing music(OK, the first two are related), kung fu, and my family.

I make no money doing kung fu, and even when I teach full-time, I will not charge. Therefore, in my life, I will not make a dime doing kung fu, but it still makes my life great.

I write songs for the joy of doing it, and will probably not try to get my stuff out there, meaning I won't make money doing it. Still, it makes my life great.

Writing, I might someday make money at, but I am deadset to only write what is worthwhile to me, and that might not be what gets bought. Therefore, I might not make money at it, but my life is still great because of it.

My family costs. A lot. Every month of every year. But I wouldn't trade them for anything, and my life is great again for this.

I make more money now than I ever have, though I make a modest income. However, I am pretty good with money, so I know how to make it go much further, so I can continue to live and become better at my passions. I don't give up the dreams of becoming great at my passions, I just keep in my mind that after thirty years, I will be a greater expert in them that what I pictured in my original dream, and so I'll surpass the dream, whether I market it or not.

So good luck on surpassing your dreams.

[LEGEND]

Ever since my ex left me yah...I feel like u...but that 2 years ago. I remember a saying from CONAN the movie...enuf time to sleep in the grave...life is short bro...real short...live it...do things u want to do...have never done...bungy jump...snowboard...live YOUR LIFE...and eventually u'll die. But for now...LIVE...good luck

[diego]

he was in the game since the mid 80s did ****all,toatl unknown clubartist,till 97 when he started barking,now hes sold 15 million at least.....i know ima have to be a carpenter or the like to pay for my hobby wich is my dreams,instead of try to get paid from my dreams,just out of your own pocket actualize your dreams,unless you can figure a way to prostitue your art and start barking....:D

[prana]

http://www.fpmt.org/teachings/zopadepression.asp

Some advice from Lama Zopa Rinponche :)
We all have good and bad days. It is what makes the good days so good.

[Kristoffer]

cheer up buddy! I'm giving you the thumbs up, aproval to be in command of all the porn from Sweden!! huh? pretty sweet huh? :D

[Mutant]

delicate-sound,
when i feel like that the best thing to do for me is to work out until i'm exausted. stay away from the computer or t.v. for awhile. you could go for a long run. then just practice kung fu full out until you've worked it all out of your system. if youre into forms, blast all your forms, weapons too. bag work seems particularly good at these time. beat a heavy bag mercilessly. get yourself totally pumped up and drink lots of fruit juice. and stay away from people who bug you for awhile, too, family etc, and don't comsume depressants for a couple of days, alcohol included.
works for me everytime. although the hardest part is forcing yourself to get go work out when your energy is low, so just go do it!

[SifuAbel]

Everybody..............

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

[wushu chik]

Nah, really. You have all of us. That's what we are here for. Even though we don't get along most of the time, we can still be there for each other during times of trials and tribulations! And the best thing.....the 3000 of us on the forum.......and we all have probs and the best way to get over it is to talk. i hope you are good and hope the storm is over soon!!

~Wen~

[prana]

or you could go and read the duty of care thread again.

[diego]

we feel greatly 4your condition2:D

[GunnedDownAtrocity]

there is absolutely no point in life. all we do is seek for things to chase away the bordeom and uselessness of it all until death takes us at last. it doesn't matter what you do, or how well you do it, cause you are just going to end up in the same place as the crack ***** down the road who just od'd when it's all said and done.

no matter how hard you try, you're still gonna die is my motto.

pointless futile attempts at giving life meaning leave you more empty than before once you discover their flaws.

my advice is to accept reality as monotonous meanderings through mundane melancholy and simply give up.

no matter how much you accomplish in your very brief exposure to this chaos filled void you will still return from the nothingness from which you came. even great fame does you little good when your inards have long since become worm food. you are just as well off if you had never been born.

some may argue that this attitude deprives the future as we wouldn't even have the likes of electricity if all our forefathers felt this way, but i say so what. you wouldn't miss what you never had and you are going to be put in the ground regardless. you can push yourself daily and you are still going to be pushing up daiseys so what's the point?

i regretfully do what i must to lessen the grief the chaos brings upon me and wait patiently for death to steal the chaos from the void.

i hope you feel better man.

[LEGEND]

it's ok sifu unable...we love u too!

[diego]

that only pertains to lostmans wolrd,dont you think a bear enjoys setting up for hibernation,hebe on some christmas **** uno filling up on bundles,stacked in his cozy cave all trianqed...he onsome yogi **** meditaten with his pikinik baskit

[SifuAbel]

Sifu unabel, Gee how original, did you invent that all by yourself?

I must be getting old, I'm too bored of this to care.

Pathetic, "I'm feeling down. someone stroke me."

Welcome to the real world where sometimes life is a heap loosing lotto tickets.

[scotty1]

Abel is unpleasant.

[scotty1]

GDA you're my daily ray of sunshine.:)

[qeySuS]

Abel your a bitter man.

Only thing that really get's me down is that there are so many things i wanna do and i almost never end up doing them, i try to plan them and follow through but it never works out 100% and so it drop out of it.

I hope college abroad doesnt go that way, same thing for training this summer. As it is i'm waiting to know if i got the new job, if not i wont be going anywhere this summer. And as for abroad college, that's expensive ****.

But hey like GDA said there's not much you can do about it. You just gotta stop fixating on the stuff and get on with your life.

[DelicateSound]

Man - all is better today!

I read GDA's post :D
Read "Duty of Care AGAIN" :)
Did all the stuff you guys said, I got up at 6.45 and

*Wrote some more music
*Went for a run round the Freezing English Countryside
*Thought of WushuChik!
*Read Budo's Rolls/Lumberjack post again
*Read all of this post again
*Had a massive training session.
*Did some last minute revision in horse-stance!
*Realised I'm not SifuAbel

At 11.30 I went into the exam and felt great - I've passed it easily. Whilst in college I got news that I've got an A in my latest coursework!
And it's only 2 days till the next episode of Buffy!

Cheers Guys! :D

[dezhen2001]

cool :D

i woke up at 5am today - for no reason, and couldn't sleep. So i got up around 6.45 and did some training also. Makes u feel much more alert for the rest of the day (so far anyway). Also actually did some study! :eek:

david

[DelicateSound]

I hate waking up early - but it does me good. I think its music that does me in really. If I listen to it when I'm in the wrong sort of mood it gets me down. I can't listen to Blink182 unless I'm in a really good mood. If not it reminds me of the glory days of Summer 2000, partying every night and playing football every day, in a 6-week period of constant sun. Burning up to Bargain Booze to grab the Fosters' 24 for £10.00 offer, waking up in a random garden. Man, those were the days... not a care in the world. :D

I feel like an old man already :(

[Yung Apprentice]

A bad week? I once had a bad year!!!! Which is how I got into music. I needed a way to vent my anger and deppression and frustration, so I started writiing my own lyrics and rapping. I was freakin good and getting better as a write/rapper, but then things started getting better for me in my life, and I had more things to do, so little by little I was rapping and writing less. And eventually I stopped. I wanted to eventually take it somewhere but since it's been a while I kinda regressed. I may try again, but if not I would like to become a cop.( two different worlds ain't it?)

[dezhen2001]

If i want to be really 'traditional' - i'm meant to get up at 5am every day to train in Qigong! It makes me feel really good (and also no other students see me). It's the thought of the hard qigong test that keeps me going :eek:

Blink 182 - :cool: i'm just coming out of my street hiphop/ganagsta phase into something more mellow......gangsta rap sure has sum cool beats though :) Unfortunately i'm not a badazz anymore, now i'm just a wuss!

i remember those days too, but that was when i was like 14/15. Now i don't have enough money to drink! (don't like the taste either).

How is your Lau Gar/Wing Chun/Judo etc. going? Keep representin' SOT :D

david

[qeySuS]

now that your happy go buy yourself one of these:

http://www.pimphats.com/01costumepre.htm

[dezhen2001]

dang!:eek: Those outfits r dope man! Pimpin style :D
i can just see DS cruising around SOT dressed like that!

or maybe not......

david

[GunnedDownAtrocity]

i had a bad year before too.

i can't remember everything, but the biggest **** was that i was told that i probably had cancer, i was threatened to cut my hair (which has been long since first grade) if i wanted to keep my job, they jerked me around for 9 months before finally doing the surgery, i developed a severe drinking problem during this time, i actually tried crack under extremely odd circumstances, i all but gave up training and working out, i finally got my surgery and they jerked me around for about 2 months before i finally got the results, after the biopsy came back the doctor said he didn't believe that there really wasn't any cancer so he sent it elsewhere to be checked again, so it was another 2 months before they finally told me i didnt have cancer.

durring the 2 weeks immedietly following my surgery i got the flu for the first time since i was nine, my daughter and girlfriend got the flu, daughter ended up in the hospital because of it (she's fine), i got the flu for a 2nd fu cking time, me and my girlfriend broke up, and then we ended up getting back togeather a little too soon when our cat got hit by a car and had to be taken to an all night vet.

my luck for an entire year was actually as bad as i presented it and worse as i can't remember everything.

though it cost me $500 my cat is fine. the car smashed his hip and they talked like they might have to remove that leg. he ended up having to stay in a cage that he could barely turn around in for about a month, but i guess keeping him locked up like they said worked as you can only barely notice a limp now if he's been running real fast. he got fat as hell when he wasn't alowed outside anymore, but when it became apparent he was pushing into heart attack zone we started letting him out when we could keep an eye on him and he quickly lost the weight. ought to see the little ******* when he hears a car now though .... i don't think he'll get hit again.

[Sharky]

yeah, life is ****

[LEGEND]

Actually Sifu unable...it was "I" who termed u UNABLE what was it...a year ago...yah...so I guess I am the original one. Smile.

[Yung Apprentice]

My bad year was different. I got kicked at of a school I actually liked, my girl of two years turned out pregnant by someone 8 years older than her.( she was fifteen at that time ) My dad was taking prescription medicine, and side effects included depression, my mom was diagnosed with diabetes, my aunt was diagnosed with ALS or Lui Gerig's disease. My other aunt passed away. My cousin passed away, I broke my ankle and couldn't try out for baseball ( which I'm very good at, and I absolutely love the game ) My cousin got locked up, my best friend's mom passed away


A very good friend of the family died( he was like a grandpa to me, since I never got to know my grandpa) Another friend of mine got stabbed four times, I got held up at gun point four times, mugged twice, jumped once, shot at three times. i had 9 friends die that year. Five of which died within two and a half weeks. One got murdered right in front of me. Some guys were driving by and started shooting at us, my friend got hit three times and I had to leave him behind because they were still shooting at me. And thats how that year went.:(

[Yung Apprentice]

But everything is much better now!:)

[Qi dup]

wow GDA, that's a crazy story. I'm glad your daughter and your cat turned out ok! That's tough though man, Cancers a real b!tch. I'm glad your ok man.

Yung Apprentice, I think that is the worst year every! That's like Oprah bad. THat's like that movie 'beaches' bad. That's almost 'Mission: imposible 2' bad! Seriously, I think your my new hero! I'm glad your doing better now, I think it says a lot that you made it through that without lossing it. I think you should write a book about it or something. I hope everytyhing is going well for you now.


DS, good to hear your back on top! It must have been that milk you had before you went to bed! Put some of your lyrics up if you get any good ones. Life's a graden, dig it.

[diego]

yung i think that tops sharkeys gypsy thread....dang

[GunnedDownAtrocity]

Yung Apprentice. .. ya just had to go and top my bad year didnt you. a$$hole.

it's definatley cool you made it through all that sh!t ok though man. having a friend killed in front of you had to be pretty fu ckin horrible. why were they shooting at you guys? where the hell did you live when all this happened?

[KC Elbows]

Any other entries to the bad year contest?

Maybe the winner could win a trip to Lincoln, Nebraska, where they could spend some quality time with the Dixie Chicks fan club and go to a historical recreation of the civil war. Afterwards, they could be flown out to Utah and take part in a high pressure attempt to convert them over to Mormonism, and, once that's done, its straight to Minnesota, where they can go on a nature hike to find the largest variety of mosquito in the Land of 10,000 lakes.

And then they'll be shot. Which won't seem so bad, after Lincoln.

[DelicateSound]

No matter how bad things get, you ALWAYS know that the people of Lincoln, Nebraska'll have it worse.

Nice list KC, althugh there really should be an enforced overnight stay in Rolls's UFC inspired Jizz-palace (TM)*.........


*Jizz-palace is used by permission of Gracie JiuJitsu.

[wushu chik]

See, I bring a ray of sunshine into somebodys life!! TOLD YOU GUYS!!!! Anyways, I am glad to hear you are feeling better DS and that you passed your exam with flying colors!!! Hope you keep it up, because being depressed is no fun! Hope all is well, and keep in touch!

~Wen~

[Tae Li]

bad days????? are you kidding?? i thought I was going through a mid life crisis at one stage, but then i thought thats not possible cos i not even close to mid life.

Then i started reading more about philosophy of life and stuff, and recently i bought a book called The Essence of Happiness- a guidebook for living, written by the Dalai Lama- its really good, gets you thinking, im not Buddist but still it states common sense....

And if you are really feeling down and meditation or training doesnt help, just think, "bad does not look good until worse happens", so appreciate life for what it is and remember,

"life is like a tiger: you can either let it rest its paws on your head, or you can sit on its back and ride it".

Take it easy.

:)

Tae Li;)

[Yung Apprentice]

I live in Las Vegas. Believe it or not, things can get pretty fu(ckin crazy out here. I used to live in a bad neighborhood( every city has there ghettos ) but they needed a big peice of area for a casino, and bought up many houses there.Although it's still kinda bad it's nowhere near as bad as it used to be.As for my friend , he didn't get along with this one gangsta, and one day my friend ( who is not gangsta ) punked this guy in front of his friends. He told him if he wasn't such a ***** why would he have to bring his friends. And then he made the mistake of telling this guy, if he was a down for his set howcome he won't fight one on one? So the gangstas friends told him to fight my friend one on one to show that he was "down". When the gangsta realised his friends weren't going to back him up, he pussed out.

So to retaliate, and to get his respect back from his friends, they told this guy to shoot my friend. So one day me and my friend were walking down this street in this one neighborhood, when a car pulled up acroos the street started shooting at us. There happened to be a parked car on the side of the street that we were walking on. So I made a run for one of the houses on that block. I remember just as I was about to reach the fence, I turned around and saw my friend on the floor. He was right next to me, and I'm pretty sure if he wasn't right there, I would have been shot. I turned back around and tried to get the parked car in between the view of the gangsta and me. Only problem is, it's not like the movies, where bullets don't penetrate cars. They were still shooting at me so I had to jump the brick wall and leave my friend behind. They drove away, and within minutes an ambulance arrived, unfortunalety it was too late.

[GunnedDownAtrocity]

dude . .. i'm sorry.

it may have been a while ago, but you have my condolances.

[Yung Apprentice]

But don't get the misconception from my post that Las Vegas is a bad city, because it isn't. It's not nearly as bad as other cities. Thing is though the at that time, the ghetto i lived in was the worst that Vegas had. They had five or six different "sets" ( or gangs ) that lived in a half a square mile. And none of them got along. So it was like a **** war, constantly. Then they expanded a casino, bought up a lot of the property, and now it's kinda safe to walk down at night. I still hear gun shot every now and then, once in a blue moon. As for my five friends who died in a span of two and a half weeks, Four of them went on vacation to El Paso,TX. On the way there they got into areally bad car accident, which none of them survived. My other friend that passed away, had a tumor in his head. And he was smoking some weed, it was laced with something, and it triggered an anurism(?) ( I don't think I spelled it right)

I started writind raps, about my struggles. It was a good way to vent. My ryhme themes were always about anger, and deppression.And eventually everything started going my way. And I ran out of things to vent about. I'm happy, and even though I miss my friends, I will always know, if things start to go bad, it eventually become good.
:)

[Yung Apprentice]

Thank you GDA. You have my condolances.:)

[Yung Apprentice]

Oh by the way just for refrence, my family members who passed away, and my cousin who got locked up, this happened in Baltimore. My aunt who was diagnosed with ALS, this is in Mexico City. just so yall don't think Vegas is bad luck or anything.

[DelicateSound]

I went to Vegas last year. It was quite a nice place [esp. the strip itself]. Man, I love those travellator/escalators that arte everywhere!

There were a few parts of town I was edgy about, but on the whole it was very safe. I've been to cities with a better rep that are far worse. Vancouver is a d a m n rough place, and I'd always thought it great. Denver's the best city I've ever seen.

[DelicateSound]

Originally posted by KC Elbows
flown out to Utah and take part in a high pressure attempt to convert them over to Mormonism

The pressure BS is bad, but some of the mormon chicks are sweet!

[DelicateSound]

Life really is too short to be on this forum.

[diego]

Vancouver is a d a m n rough place, and I'd always thought it great. ????u talking about vancouver washington,,how hard could they be,aint nowhere in canada rough,xept some spots in montreal,and maybe t.o

[Qi dup]

I used to live in Utah, or the hateu (Utah backwards) state. I don't remember to many hotties, but there were a few. That Mormon chick on the real world was kind hot though. I'm not sure why I watch that show. My brother used to live in Omaha which is like 40 min. from Lincoln, Nebraska and there were a lot of good looking girls out there, so at least they've got that going for them. But your right, Denver is pretty great. I live about an hour west and it's still my favorite city.



Yung Apprentice is still my hero.

[Yung Apprentice]

Thanks man! Nobody's ever called me that before.:)

[DelicateSound]

Diego - Yes I mean Vancouver Washington. The first thing I saw there was gang-related racist violence - 2 HUGE [and I mean huge] black guys kicking the **** out of this tubby white bloke.

I love Denver. But I haven't been to LA. Yet.

I went to Salt Lake City, around the HQ, and the mormon girls that tried to convert you were HOT. Pretty good tactic. I actually said to one of them after 3 days of constant pestering:

"If I join - do I get a sweet piece of ass like you?"

She didn't know what to say, and just made some random vowel sounds.