Well... Shaolin Monks don't fight, they defend. Is that against Buddhism (just curious)? But, I am a Christian, I will never give up my faith, if that's what it takes to become a Shaolin Monk. Also, I am not wanting to learn MA (Shaolin in particular) to fight, I am wanting to find my true self. I want to get closer to GOD and my savior Jesus Christ, I believe MA can help me achieve that.