see, IMHO, the hardest thing about letting go is that we're afraid that we won't be able to get it back together again...for me, everytime I successfully self-manage a little issue, it's showing me another way to work with others
Exactly. My biggest problem. I have no problem telling others they need to take a break and heal but I have this block that is what you described; I'm scared that if I stop for a few days (or week if need be) I'm going to lose too much and have to start all over again. It is self defeating thinking as all I do is push myself into a bigger problem. I need to get over that.
Your suggestion of branching out to splitting out my week to do some ortho work is well taken and something I will need to do before I get totally burned out. The population I work with is not for everyone and I'm sure that most young, idealistic PT student (who thinks their going to get out and work with professional atheletes after their board exams) would be horrified if they saw that this was also part of the PT profession
Thanks very much for your input.... I might send you a pm every now and then to get a suggested reading list what's new and current.
Vajramusti,
It is indeed a small world. My father who taught at FSU in the early 70's also had an office in the Bellamy Building. I think, if I remember correctly, it was on the 5th floor. He was head of the American Studies Program until about 1976.
I met Tony Brown in the early 70's and studied for awhile under him before he left town around 1979. I had lost track of him for over 20 years but never forgot what a dynamic teacher he was and the impact it had on my life at the time. It was certainly one of those pivital moments in my life; training under him nudged me into a different direction than the one I was taking at the time, something to my benefit. I re-connected with him in 2002 and he and his extremely talented Hung Gar practitioner daughter, Naomi, came and visited me for New Years. I had always regreted having stopped my martial arts study and when I met up with him again I didn't hesitate to ask him to get me started again.
I recieved almost daily reports from him while he was in Banda Ache and when he returned, I listened to numerous stories and looked at hundreds of pictures- it was totally unreal. It was hard on him, I could tell, because he had experienced this thing and then came back to the States where people didn't seem to want to hear about it.
Sorry, I didn't get the name of my Tiji teachers shifu, I had to hunt high and low to find this man as there is very little TCMA done in this town and, with a few exceptions, it's all chain style karate studios and such. He studied in San Fransico in the 70's after a career as a karate fighter. He doesn't bother trying to attract students because he says that no one wants to put the effort and they end up leaving. He doesn't care. He keeps me so occupied with just learning how to stand that I don't have much other conversation with him.
I will tell Sifu you send your regards, I had mentioned to him before that you had shown support in these forums for his efforts and he spoke highly of you.
Bob