EarthD,

To be netural about it, I would recommend if you look to Master Su in NYC for further 8 Step instruction. I think he is the nearest teacher who can teach you the Zhai Yao. According to Master Sun, he knows all the 8 Step forms except for the low mantis form.

Old8Step,

Let's encourage EarthDragon to move on and not continue to reflect on his bad experiences. I think it would be both beneficial for him and this forum.