you know, I've tried to help you - I REALLY have - it just makes me sad to see u carry on this way - it's like, well, I was waking down the street just a bit after reading your last post, and i saw this, and it reminded me of you, so I took this picture, I thought, maybe it would help you understand how I and everyone else on here sees you:
do you understand? do you get it at all? somehow I doubt that you do; probably not - in fact, I am guessing that instead, this is more the way you envisage yourself:
I hope this helps you understand things a bit more clearly - I mean, I really want to help you, but even the Buddha can't get you enlightened all alone, you have to take at least the first step...