LOL, no you need to learn from good teachers and pressure test what you learn against good training partners. Not exposing your techniques to the widest possible audience is a recipe for unproven techniques. You can continue to delude yourself and others that you are the best if you never actually test that, like your group of the "best" who never work out with anyone who doesn't have the right decoder ring.
I think I said to you that being a hermit in a cave (caveman) was a bad idea. I guess you're not a fan of the paleo diet either.
The notion of this secret underground of ultraformidable martial artists who never show their stuff to or against anybody outside their circle, let alone anybody well known, is ridiculous.
You got to stop with these imaginary friends and train with some real people.
Everyone who competes in anything has psychological problems? Go to the mirror to see who really has issues with competition. Did you always get picked last for teams at school or something? Some other guy always got the girl you lusted after?