lol.
Not to mention, there are no secret magic special martial arts out there.
Train as well as you are able.
Get comfortable with being uncomfortable if you really want to learn martial art.
Get out of your head and into the world, your teacher will be pain and if he doesn't show up, you aren't learning a martial art.
Sifu is there to teach you the mechanics an the system. You are there to learn them. That's the contract anyone of any merit signs explicitly or implicitly.