Ryu, not many people are as introspective as you are being right now. If you don't constantly analyze then you can't consciously grow. but, you don't need anyone to tell you that.
my only comment is that accepting challenge matches in a public school is a two edged sword as you well know. If your students are really yours then I don't think you have to worry about their opinion if you don't accept. No waiver will protect you if you accidentally hurt the person and they feel like sueing you. meet him on nuetral ground.
of course, I don't think it was fair to put the poor wrestler in a gi.![Wink](images/smilies/wink.gif)
having just started jujitsu this year, dealing with the gi has been my biggest obstacle.
I'm getting ready to spar a boxer in front of my students. Not a challenge match, just an agreed upon bout. Boxing rules and I'm gonna get nailed many times, I reckon. But, I think it is good for my students to see that.
good luck.
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