Seeking more

[Minghequan]

Work as a Doorman/Security Person at the Club I am employed at has not been so good. Of late work has been nothing more than non-stop issues with fights and a lack of support from management and staff not doing their job (responsible service of alcohol etc). Fellow security staff have not been up to speed on dealing with issues and it has all fell back to me alone to act. I am not only dealing with alcohol fuelled violence but “Ice” as well. After some 35 years Martial training and experience and I find that I am now seeking something more than dealing with violence, threats on myself and family. I see something more from life then just this. It’s been a succinct moment of epiphany where one suddenly begins to understand that there is more to life. The actual situation seems to be declining rather than getting any better despite my efforts. The other thing is at 45 years of age, I seek something more from life than dealing with the violence (be it alcohol and "Ice" fuelled) on a regular basis. I guess its part of me seeking peace within my life .... a state of self actualization or realisation. I seek a better path of being. We (my wife and I) and I are now looking at our future options.

Just a rant

[SevenStar]

you chose that path yourself, bro. I work in the same field - witnessed someone get their throat cut not too long ago- but it is what it is. I deal with violence daily - I usually blog about it on myspace - but, like I said, it is what it is.

if you do choose to continue this line of work, perhaps it may help you to think of the positives of it. also, if you are unhappy with treatment /support you are getting from management or your peers, talk to them. our head of security will usually come to me or two other guys concerning new employees and their skill level in various areas. if we don't think a guy is gonna work out, he takes that into consideration.

[SPJ]

sometimes less is more. may be a break/vacation and some changes at work place.

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I was born into a police/military family. We have hand guns in the household. We listened to police and military radios. etc

My mom "immunized" us with strong doses of church going and temple visiting.

so that we may have "buddha" hearts for compassion and mercy.

so that we may have "christian" hearts for love for others and love for god. and be grateful for what we have or given.

most importantly, is to forgive and forget and harbor no ill will or intent to harm others.

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sometime to deal with a lot of violences may be less violence.

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just some thoughts. dun mind me.

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