RUFNTUFGIRL, don't feel too badly about yourself.
No matter what anybody says, ANYBODY can be easily defeated in a street fight. Training, athleticism, and experience can be all rendered ineffective by a stray bullet or a horde of attackers.
I don't know what kind of situation you were in, but you seem to have escaped it well enough to be able to post here. You're ALIVE, and that's what counts.