that sucks...i've been inactive since may due to closing my school and inactive in my own training since Late Feb/March due to chronic hip pain.
i dunno what to suggest, still trying to figure out if I'm gonna get back in at all and at what level...tis a conundrum it is.
as a mountain biker, I can say you can indeed get into that serious like and it's a blast. kinda 'spensive start up and you can fall and hit your head of course...but, i ride very conservatively and don't fall often.
i jumped in to crossfit but you surely have your own program...
and there is always teaching...naw, forget i EVER said that...
one part of me says 'if i can't go as hard as I want to then what's the point of doing it at all' ...we all know that's kinda stupid but for anyone that has done anything for a long time at a high level of effort, it's a very deep and real feeling.
and another part is definitely lost just thinking about NOT training because it's been THE major facet of my life for 27 years.
i know that i really don't every want to say 'I used to be a martial artist' much less 'yea, i trained and taught for 27 years and then just quit'
soooo. take some time like I am, don't push it away forever, get some perspective and then see where you are a few months down the road.
"George never did wake up. And, even all that talking didn't make death any easier...at least not for us. Maybe, in the end, all you can really hope for is that your last thought is a nice one...even if it's just about the taste of a nice cold beer."
"If you find the right balance between desperation and fear you can make people believe anything"
"Is enlightenment even possible? Or, did I drive by it like a missed exit?"
It's simpler than you think.
I could be completely wrong"